Hurry up and wait

Junior year in high school I started to consider going to medical school, by the time senior year rolled around I had decided on becoming a dentist.

Since I made that decision I have constantly been preparing myself, always thinking about how to make my resume look better, focusing on good grades, participating in research, volunteering and getting involved with various clubs.

After spending my junior year carefully choosing what schools I wanted to apply to, taking the dental admissions text (DAT), working on my personal statement and supplemental materials I was finally ready to apply for dental schools. On June 1st 2011 I submitted my application to ADEA the American Dental Education Association.

Four months have passed since that day. I have received 1 letter of denial and several other generic letters saying that my application is being reviewed. In this time period I learned that waiting and not being able to have any idea how the review of your application is going is much harder than preparing to apply.

The only thing that I have been able to do in this time is to learn to be at peace and trust that God knows the outcome, knowing that I will be ok even if I don't get accepted. It took me quite a while to be ok with the idea that I may not get accepted but at this point I refuse to let that get me down. If I don't get in I will just keep applying until I do.

All I know is that in 8 months Eric and I will graduate. In 8 months we have to move and in 8 months we will have to find jobs where ever we go. All of these huge decisions depend on if I get in to dental school and where it it. This is the hardest part, feeling that my near future is just is hurry up at wait mode until I find out about schools. In the mean time I will just keep learning how to trust, be patient and believe.